Saturday, May 2, 2009

"...yet I feel empty"

Society has this image:
- Graduate from high school (18)
- Move away for college
- Study hard
- Find "The One"
- Graduate
- Find a job
- Get engaged/married
- Buy a house
- Start a family (sooooo by the time you're 26??)

Well, I'm not exactly 26, but I HAVE completed 4 of the 9 things. But the clock is ticking...

I have every right to feel behind because of society's "expectations" and it's not any fun. Society is making me feel empty and is draining me of my "belonging."

There's a quote about college that I know of and this part of it (off the top of my head):
You have "four years" here to goof off, be irresponsible, date, spend money that you may or may not have, stay up all night and become someone you never knew you could be or had the ability to become.

It's Vegas without the slot machines.
(HA. Did I really just say that? *laughs to self* That's the first time that's ever come to mind.)

This image I have in my head is starting to bug me and I'm losing sleep over it. Quite literally.
I'm at this point in life where everything is competitive though...and I feel that the world is way too competitive. Here's a question for you:
Are you a robot? Is your best friend a robot? Is your boss a robot? How about your co-workers?

We are choosing to live like robots. Yet we've been giving the ability to become anything we want. I like social media. Don't get me wrong. Gosh, I enjoy talking to people a lot. I'm one of those people never wants the night to end, usually. But I think that we sometimes need to treat each other like the human beings we know we are, not always demand.

My main problem? Not all companies are hiring, even though there's always "demand" for 'this or that.' It's far and few in between when it comes to call backs. So, I'm supposed to take whatever I can get, right? Right. *paused* Wait...what if my dream job is currently not available because of the economy, even though there will always be demand in this world? Do I make it happen by my own free will? I just personally feel very stuck. I'm graduating and society is making me feel as if I'm drowning into nothing. Yet, I asked for none of this.

I know I'm not perfect, but I promise, I'm worth it.